22
Aug

Gamer Grrl Music Pick: Diary of Dreams – Blind in Darkness

It’s a new week and we have a new Gamer Grrl Music Pick! This week is all about the Diary of Dreams song, Blind in Darkness.

Since I’ve been talking a lot about the music off of the Succubus Club cd, like Deception by the Cruxshadows for the Ravnos, I thought that Blind in Darkness would be a good pick.  This song was written for my favorite Vampire the Masquerade clan, the Tremere.

I have a long history with the Tremere some love, some hate.  My first Tremere was in an actual Tremere campaign set in Darkages Vampire right around the time that the House Tremere was forming into an actual clan.  I won’t go into details about the campaign since that deserves its own post, but the first time playing these Thaumaturges set a lasting impression.  The clan is very tight, blood bound to the Council of 7, and like most Kindred will back-stab each other to get to the top.  My group was no different…within the first 3 minutes of joining this campaign Kali was molested, raped, tortured, and mutilated.  No, this wasn’t a game for the faint of heart…

I’ve had several others between then and now.  I’m currently playing Kali, version 2.0, and she’s a much nicer version of Kali 1.0.  She doesn’t fit the Tremere song, Blind in Darkness, off the Succubus Club CD:

I will plaster all you mortals with my dominating guts
I will torment revelations – I did never ask for much
I will taste the detonation while the Geminis go wild
I’ll absorb the human sigh, eradicate your dormant lie

Does it suck your breasts for milk, golden honey, dressed in silk
Does it feel your patient care in your dreadful glassy stare
or does it feel your true emotions in its scars and bruises burn
Do you really think your lies will tear open cloudy skies?

Feel my fingers in your wound while my eyes ascend the gloom
Questions wasting all my time – I see your eyes detesting mine
Sick of a life you never had, in dead motion, you look so sad
I could care less if I’d like – I let you go into the night

Is my ignorance my fate, or is my love distorted hate
Is deliverance my mate or am I sleeping while awake
Is this place that we call home adorned by devastating foam
Am I mortal, am I god – Am I brighter than you thought?

I will never beg for mercy – I will never kiss your feet
I will never ask forgiveness and all of that I want to keep!
I will guide the blind in darkness though I cannot see myself
I will whisper in a deaf ear while I know you cannot speak

And I hear rumors about angels…

Funny enough, Diary of Dreams will be playing in October, outside of Amsterdam.  Some friends and I are thinking about going…I wonder if I contact them if they’d be willing to put this on their playlist for a Tremere GamerGrrl? Hmmm…

If you’d like to know more about Diary of Dreams, visit their official site.  While Blind in Darkness is a very old song, their current tracks are pretty good if you like a little goth with heavy German accents!